Nursing, me and Serge Benhayon

For the last 12 weeks I have been working full time. I know this does not sound like an extraordinary feat for most, but for me it has been a big change. I have not worked full-time since I became a mother ... that was 11 years ago and while I did continue to work in my profession on a casual basis, it was always my last priority. The reason for my return to full-time work is that my husband injured himself and was unable to work, so the tables were turned and I became our family’s ‘bread winner’.

I work as a registered nurse and my relationship with nursing has always been lukewarm. A lot of the time I felt very overwhelmed by the workload.

There was the pressure of meeting Key Performance Indicators (KPIs) while trying to provide quality and holistic nursing care. I often found the amount of illness and disease patients suffered, very difficult to understand and accept – I deeply care for people and I would always find myself sympathising with patients and taking on their worries and emotions. We are taught in nursing that the way to care for a person is to provide sympathy and empathy, "to put yourself in their shoes", and to put the patients’ needs first, often in total disregard of ourselves.

What I found was the more I cared for the patient and did not support myself, the more exhausted I felt. I hated feeling so exhausted and if I am honest, couldn’t wait to stop nursing. I had witnessed many of my colleagues go hard and abandon the typical nursing caring, accommodating persona to cope with the job. My solution was to work less to decrease the impact, but I often still felt drained and exhausted after a shift.

With this being my past experience of nursing I have to admit I did wonder how I would cope with full-time work. You would think I would have felt a sense of hesitancy and overwhelm ... surprisingly I did not: what I felt was a readiness and an acceptance of the situation I found myself in and I fully embraced the change that was ahead of me. I can honestly say that every day I have gone to work accepting that I need to be there, and with a sense of purpose and joy. Such a huge contrast to my previous experience of full-time work.

The reason for this massive shift has been the support I have received through the work of Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine. Over the last 4 years I have been attending Universal Medicine workshops and presentations, reading Serge’s books and having sessions with Esoteric practitioners. This support has been instrumental in helping me develop self-love and a deeply caring, nurturing way of living. I have developed a deeper connection with my body and a daily rhythm that supports me to listen to the wisdom the body naturally provides.

This new level of commitment to being loving with myself has meant that I am now truly open and loving with people. No longer am I scared of being ‘drained’ by people’s emotions, for I know that ...

"The livingness of compassion is to observe, accept and let be."

Serge Benhayon Esoteric Teachings and Revelations, p 446

This truth supports me every day in my nursing role.

Reflecting on the last 12 weeks, I can honestly say that it is possible to return to full-time work and wake up each morning feeling truly committed and joyful about being part of the so-called '9-5 grind'.

The support and inspiration I have received from Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine has been life changing.

It is like I have been granted a key to life, giving me the freedom to develop a very loving and nurturing relationship with myself and live in a way that is truly responsible.

This has allowed me to know that I am connected to everyone and that we are all equal. With this wisdom comes the freedom to truly support others through observation and acceptance of their life choices – this has made my role as a nurse one of joy-full connection with all.

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  • By Bianca Barban, Registered Nurse

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